Another revelation I received from the Lord – finally made sense of all of the painful experiences I had to endure last 33 yrs of my life. W/ every failed attempts, w/ all the pleading where the Lord didn’t seem to hear, but ruthlessly hurt me, I often wondered why I have to go thru w/ all those painful moments. Is it really necessary that I need to experience such turmoil in my life?
I never really received the direct answer until last night...I often wondered why my sense of God was so strong. To be really honest, God is someone who is so real that I could talk to him anywhere, any place, any time. The ‘God-consciousness’ is so alive in me. And the reason why I like this was b/c God in his mercy was building this kind of reality in me, as I was struggling w/ him.
Every hardship I faced, I was talking and wrestling w/ him – I would yell, I would kick, I would scream – and the more I did, the more I was struggling w/ him and the more he became real. All of these failures of my life were there to allow me to be drawn closer to God. And right now, I’m at a point where I sense God every single moment of my life! Had I not gone thru those struggles, God would not have been so close to me.
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Ah yes, the many doorways to Gods room. Have had many tussles with the God concept.
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